I was driving around with friends at night. We were staying at my house, it was late and we were out of alcohol besides a half of a Guinness I found on the table which I immediately drank. My friend from highschool, Mike, was there helping me clean- I had explained and showed him pictures of how many family was hoarders but admitted sheepishly that this room's mess was my fault. He didn't seem to mind and said he had to run errands but would come back which I didn't believe. He said he'd try to pick up more booze on the way back while I stayed and cleaned. We were trying to get this done before my parents woke up because I was having anxiety about them finding out. Before Mike could head out, my dad got up for work and walked through the living room where we were. I tried to distract from what was going on and act confident and indifferent by askimg him for money so I could get more alcohol. He had a fake jokey vibe and said I caught him at a bad time and all he had was some change; it wasn't enough but I thanked him anyway. At this time, Mike returned. I said I still didn't have enough and started to stress. He said we could go to the store and he would just get it for me. But then I got even more stressed and told him it was Sunday and they didn't sell alcohol till a certain time. I started getting anxious and took one more sip from the Guinness bottle even though it was empty and I knew there was barely a drop left. Now my mom was up and happened to see me and assumed I'd been drinking a lot even though the whole frustration all night was that I couldn't find any alcohol. She proceeds to give me a hard time. This aggravates me because it has been the opposite of what's been going on and I was already frustrated because I hadn't been able to get any alcohol. She was just mistaken because she walked in right when I was trying to get the last drop out of an already empty bottle, so this put me in worse mood because it seemed like this was an on-going situation between me and her. So me and Mike left which we planned to at this time anyway, and drove around. We were having random chemistry which I didn't expect since we weren't super close in highschool but I assumed the stress of the night was bringing us together or helping us understand each other more. I asked if he wanted to go to 6 flags with my other friends and myself today, since we were going anyway! he agreed which was exciting and unexpected! My friends Leigh and Caroline were there and some other people. We had a hotel room. We went to the amusement park for a bit but I was getting sweaty and needed another drink and we were too afraid to bring alcohol into the park. Leigh said we had some at the hotel. At the hotel I fluffed my hair in front of a mirror. It was long and dark like it was in highschool. I wanted to change out of some of my layers because it was hotter than I expected and I was sweaty and didn't want to be gross because I was starting to like Mike. Mike sat on the bed while everyone got refreshments or changed. I guess this wasnt his normal friend group so he didn't know what to do or say. I took off a white sweater and wrapped it around my waist and then took off another tan sweater, till I got to a plain black tank top but we were in a rush and I couldn't get it on right so it looked disheveled which made me feel insecure. I went to the drink fountain they had in the room for an alcoholic drink finally, but all they had was fountain drinks and blue Powerade. I got stressed again and started to complain to Leigh who usually fixed these situations and had the most money out of the group. She said we would get drinks on the way back to the park and I'd just have to sneak them in. While waiting in line me and Mike were being romantic and he wanted to kiss but I told him I didn't know how and acted shy. But we did anyway, and he didn't stress me out about it surprisinly. it did start to feel like he was getting more distant and uncomfortable and regretted leaving his regular friend group to try hanging out with mine so I start to think maybe he just liked my appearance but was slowly realizing we didn't have much in common. back at 6 flags, it's actually more looking like a local crappy fair and it's sort of nighttime but not really. I have a pink can of monster and I am chugging it in line with my friends to get on the Carousel. And I yet again realize it's not alcoholic drink and get upset. Leigh pulls out some white claw and says oh, here, feigning annoyance and I chug one and start to drink the other, not even caring if the attendant controlling the ride sees. I feel like this is starting to stress Mike out but I don't care. When it's time to get on the ride, the attendant says she doesn't really care about the drinks, just don't act crazy with it and that we have flash passes anyway. I worry I'll have to pee on the ride so I ask if I can run to pee before she starts it since I chugged all those drinks and me and my personal group are the only people on the ride anyway. She says sure which is a surprise. So I have to run all the way back to the front to a port o potty but a kind of chunky kid with no shirt on cuts in front of me and uses it first and blows the port o potty up to where there's diarrhea everywhere inside. I ask a girl if she would still use it and she says definitely not and I worry if I peed in it it would splash back up and get bacteria on me so I try to go behind the port o potty and pee. I then get sidetrack by my friends saying it was time for an event we signed up for which was a private lap dance almost freak show kind of carnival attraction where you go sit in a room and watch a burlesque show. Now, the person I'm with is my ex-matt. The whole thing is bizarre. We are in this sort of cage of a room with other people waiting for the dancer to come out. She finally does, and does a strip tease. She also walks up to you and flirts with you; when she came up to me, I didn't know how to respond and didn't want to embarrass myself so I nervously touched her thigh to which she got mad and said "that's enough, hands off." Apparently you are not supposed to actually touch her, just let her flirt around you. The weird part was she was tickling me with this long tassls of braided pubic hair which is something I'd never seen before so I definitely didn't know what to do and I didn't want to embarrass myself in front of Matt because I knew he would make me feel inexperienced. The more she danced he was getting more and more excited which I wasn't failing to notice. She walked behind a curtain and for the final act she appeared again, stroking herself but it was a penis. I got super confused whether it was real or not or if it was just apart of the show leaning into the "freak" show aspect. I also wondered if it would be illegal for her to touch her real parts in front of us for this kind of show, so they used a prosthetic to get around it. I also wondered if she really did have both parts and if that's why she was working at a freak show. Anyway, the routine was over and it was time for us to finally ride the carousel because our place in line was being held since we had the special passes and the lady said we could just come right back and get on but of course Matt had disappeared and forced his way to backstage or at least trying to talk to the dancer backstage professing his love for her and gassing her up about how she is the woman of his dreams and he's never encountered a woman like her before and begging for her number. This embarrassed and pissed me off in front of my friend group. She said she couldn't give him her number so he insisted he would leave her all his information. When he returned he acted like he did nothing wrong and was still in awe of her and like anyone would have done that if they had met her, like it was a once in a lifetime opportunity. I just wanted to get back to the courosel finally to ride a ride and find Mike who didn't treat me like that. When I got back to my spot on the courosel though, there was a piece of paper - a note! From Mike. It had this blue sort of tiki face on it and the note said something about how he liked me but he couldn't deal with my pagan tendencies because he was Christian. I got confused and sort of mad because I am Christian and didn't understand what he meant by pagan. I don't even fully know what pagan means! The attendee said the drawing of the face was something she knew, something familiar. Like it was some sort of deity or voodoo protection or something. I started hastily writing back, saying "I'll have you know I'm Christian! I don't even know what Pagan is and I read the Bible. I actually read it, I'm about to finish the book of Numbers." But I realized I was only wasting my time and that he had already left and made up his mind of me and I should probably just ride the ride. My mind was in a whir from how Matt had just acted and then Mike disappearing and having an idea of me that was incorrect and one I couldn't figure out how he came to a conclusion of. At the end of the dream, it was daytime again and there was water rides. I wanted to get in, but everyone said they wouldn't trust the local water rides. They were probably dirty and not up to code with sanitation. And then I woke up.
This dream appears to be a reflection of your thoughts, emotions, and experiences in your waking life. It showcases your desires, anxieties, and insecurities regarding alcohol, relationships, self-image, and spirituality.
The dream starts with you and your friends driving around at night, trying to find alcohol. This may represent a desire for escapism or a need for relaxation and fun. The fact that you are worried about your parents finding out, along with the mention of hoarding, suggests a fear of judgment and disapproval from others.
The presence of your friend Mike, who helps you clean without judgment, implies a supportive and understanding figure in your life. However, your doubts about him returning with alcohol indicate a lack of trust or uncertainty in some of your relationships.
The interaction with your parents reflects your desire to maintain a confident and indifferent façade, even when facing stressful situations. The misunderstanding with your mother about drinking highlights a recurring theme of miscommunication or misconceptions in your relationships.
The romantic dynamics with Mike represent unexpected connections and the possibility of emotional growth. However, your feelings of insecurity and the fear that he may not share the same interests or values suggest self-doubt and the need for reassurance.
The amusement park setting symbolizes fun, excitement, and a desire for enjoyment. Your frustration with not finding alcoholic drinks indicates a longing for gratification or the feeling of being unfulfilled in some area of your life. The encounter with the burlesque dancer and the complex emotions it evokes, such as uncertainty and embarrassment, may reflect your struggles with intimacy, sexuality, and self-confidence.
The presence of Matt, your ex, and his behavior with the dancer may represent unresolved feelings or past experiences that continue to affect your current relationships. His actions could trigger feelings of jealousy, inadequacy, or betrayal.
The note from Mike, mentioning your "pagan tendencies," may symbolize a perceived conflict between your spiritual beliefs and the potential for religious differences in relationships. It could reflect concerns about being misunderstood or judged for your individuality.
Lastly, the water rides and the caution of your friends to avoid them represent a sense of hesitation or fear of taking risks in your waking life. It implies a need for caution and self-preservation, possibly related to concerns about health and safety.
Overall, this dream illustrates your desire for fulfillment, connection, and self-expression, as well as your fears and insecurities. It suggests a need for self-reflection, open communication, and embracing your true identity in order to navigate relationships and find personal satisfaction.